Thursday, July 21, 2016

Course Correction.

Course correction: when a spacecraft gets off of its trajectory, or path through space, it must be put back on the right path. This is compared with the path it should be on. A new vector is computed that will put it back on course. 

Life is filled with many moments that cause us to pause and recalculate the course we are on, we have to make course corrections continually. Sometimes, in light of new opportunities, other times we experience a change in a plan outside of our control. During my 29 years of life, I have had many course corrections. Some of them have been through joyful circumstances, some come from a trial. Navigating change is hard, course corrections have a way of really upsetting our plans and dreams, how do we best handle course corrections?

One of the main actions to take during a course correction is the act of surrender. Surrendering to the season I am in, the reality I am living versus the plans I had dreamed up. In my years with foster care I have learned that the best way for me to love my babies well, is loving them with an open hand. I have four birds tattooed on my forearm, they represent my crew and the reality that I need to love them with an open hand and heart, prepared to let them go, so they can fly. Having a heart open and willing to surrender and a hand laid flat, palm up has made the journey very painful at times but in the long run it leads to peace. Such freedom comes from having an open heart. It took me so many years to understand that kind of love and brave enough to let it be.

Hindsight is also a gift, in the course changes of life. It provides you with ability to know that the harvest will come and that the seeds planted are not wasted, even when there are a few weeds. I have had many course corrections that I am so thankful for, they have resulted in a beautiful harvest. I have also, had course corrections that I have labored hard through, the result of that struggle caused in me a beautiful thing. I have learned that I must let go of what was, in order to have what is to come. The tadpole must shed his tail to grow legs, the butterfly her cocoon in order to fly.

I am currently in the middle of a grievous course correction, waking up each day I am reminded that I am here and this is my reality. It is causing me to evaluate and find my path once more. I have been taking my aching heart to the Lord and what He has shown me is that I must let die my plans and fully grieve them. The picture I keep getting is the image of Jesus weeping at the tomb of His dear friend, Lazarus. Even Jesus had to grieve and let go of his friend, knowing full well that He alone could resurrect him. So in this season, I am laying to rest my hopes and weeping with Jesus, knowing that in time He will either resurrect my dreams or change my trajectory.

Navigating a new season with a different dream and vision is hard but also evokes excitement. God does amazing things in the unexpected moments. I am assessing what this next season will bring, what is my reality? Here is what I know about this season; I am the forever mama of three little beauties. I am a mama who’s heart aches for my fourth. I am a foster mom and my license will be active again in just a few short weeks.

Sometimes, I have found that when a course correction happens, I am honestly not sure where to go or what to do? Can anyone relate to this? I seek God and it seems He is not giving me any clarity, I have found if I go back to the last thing God clearly called me to do and just keep moving forward in that, He will guide from there.

My heart in this current season is desiring peace. The desire to find joy in the journey, to just embrace the course correction and to sow seeds well that I may harvest good things. No matter the season of life you find yourself friends, allow yourself to stay in the moment, you are learning great things, one day things won’t be so heavy.

1 comment:

  1. I can so relate to your second to last paragraph...i've had times where I'm not sure of where to go or what to do next. You speak great wisdom in just going back to the most recent thing you're sure that He asked you to do and doing that. Choosing to obey and walk by faith. Thanks for sharing, friend!